Often times as I creative I feel compelled to make music; a thing that I have no idea how to make. I do not understand the creative process behind music. Do I think I have the capacity for such? Yes. Do I think I should attempt to create music right now? Oh hell no! I am currently in a path of self discovery, learning music would be interesting and I know I am the kind of person that would make fun experimental shit. However, I know that as soon as I open that Pandora’s box it will be open forever. I don’t feel like I am there. I think there is a point in everyone’s lives where you open that Pandora’s box for something, some skill, some talent, or some career. Music is definitely a door I wish to open eventually, however I think right now is not the time for me. The only musical instrument that I really know how to play anymore is the thumb piano, and the only thing I know on that is the Avatar the Last Airbender theme, and Minecraft. And honestly, I would like to keep it at that for right now. I use my thumb piano as a calming center point sometimes, I will just sit in the middle of an empty room and strum the few notes I know with my thumbs. That allows me to get through problems. It allows me to find peace for a mere moment to solve a problem, then I put it back down and go back to my projects. It is quite interesting really. I really like to do it, but I know that once I expand that path even further I will probably fall into its depths. Currently I have like a 4 page to do list that I am trying to get through, and well music just cannot make the cut currently. I love music, it fills my life at almost all moments. Some moments I simply let the world sit still, no sound, nothing. Just the ambient world as my white noise. But most of the time I am listening to fun music and doing stuff. I love music, I would love to learn to create it. I have a dream of playing the piano and playing the violin. Besides the guitar, those are really only the things I intend to try to learn to play. They are my goal when I get to music. I wish to have fun with four instruments and that is about it. Crap, by discussing it I have probably awakened a sub-conscience thread on the subject. Part of my brain is probably searching for answers musically. Dang it!

Thank you for reading!

-Ben